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:: Friday, November 15, 2002 ::

Cheese and Crackers

Cheese and crackers! That's what I'm eating now. Anytime I an munching on Town House crackers and slices of Kraft American cheese, I think of my dad. He always used the expression "cheese and crackers!" when disgusted about something. Like when the Brown's lost a championship game because of "the fumble" or "the drive", or a ref makes a very bad call. Makes me laugh thinking about my dad saying "cheese and crackers!" LOL

:: Susan 11/15/2002 10:47:23 PM ** ** [+] ::
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Alone

Yesterday Katie said to me "you like to be alone". It's true. I like to be alone. I don't want to be lonely, but I do like being alone. Not always, but sometimes.

I am rarely alone. I have lived in TN for almost 3 years and in that time I have rarely been alone for an extended period of time. Before I came here, I had only 1 roommate and we shared a living space for about 14 years. She worked a lot, so when I was off work I had a lot of alone time. I enjoyed that time. What did I do with it? Well, I played video games, saw movies, watched tv, listened to music, ran errands, stuff like that. After I became a Christian I cherished my alone time even more because it was great time of worship and prayer.

I remember playing on the computer listening to my worship music and Christian rock on my favorite online radio station. I really enjoyed just doing my own thing and listening to my tunes! Music that glorified God! I prayed a lot. I remember longing for my alone time with Him in my room. I never had to schedule it because I was always alone. Whenever I felt Him leading me, I could go to Him. When I needed Him, I could go to Him.

God has blessed me with a new life. Unfortunately, sometimes I don't think I have adjusted very well. I ache for alone time now. Time to just do what I want to do, when I want to do it. I am free to do whatever, don't get me wrong, but it isn't as easy when other's are around vying for attention. I sometimes feel guilty because I want alone time. I could go off somewhere, but I like being home. I am rarely home. On my days off, I want to be at home.

Home...I love my home. I am relaxed here. I spend 50-60 hours away from home working and travelling to and from. On my days off, I wish to spend them at home. My friend however who is cooped up at home, likes to spend them away from here. We used to love to go to the river on God days. We would spend Wednesdays, my day off, at the Tennessee River. We would worship, pray and do bible study. It was awesome! I wish we could recapture those times! His Spirit was so alive! Today's hectic schedule makes it seem so impossible.

I think I need to be better about making alone time. It isn't just gonna happen anymore. I have to seize it when I can!

It has been difficult being a single woman who went from not much of a life, to a life filled with activity. Kids everywhere wanting this and that, vying for attention. Movie's playing while I'm trying to listen to music. Video Games drowing out everything. Multiple loads of laundry every other day. It's an adjustment! Exciting at first, but the novelty is gone. Now I am still trying to understand what has happened! LOL I can't just get in the car and go anymore...I have to wait until people are ready. I'm not complaining...I really am not. I am simply trying to explain that there is a difference and life today is not what I was used to for so long.

I wouldn't trade what I have now though. God has given me a framily. Why He sought me fit to be in the lives of two growing kids, I don't know. I see my friend Katie being such a mom, a good one too, and I think to myself "I could never do it! This is why God keeps me single!" I can't deal! I think it would be different if I had been around the kids from their infancy, but I was just thrown in! I dove in! I know God wanted me here, but I had noooooooooo ideeeeeeeeeaa! LOL

That's my blog on wanting alone time. I just need recharging time. Heck, Jesus took a lot of it. He was always retreating from the crowds and going off alone, seperate even from the disciples. He used it for worthy causes. I need to do that too!

:: Susan 11/14/2002 11:08:47 PM ** ** [+] ::
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YAY! I had been wanting to add a comments link to my blogs, but couldn't find a service to do one. While surfing blogs today I came across a link to Haloscan Weblog Commenting and clicked on it. Now I have commenting ability! Try it out!

:: Susan 11/14/2002 09:55:26 PM ** ** [+] ::
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My DM visited my store today. Turns out that he thinks my store looks good. Says I'm stressed because I set a high standard, both a blessing and a curse. I scored a 100% on my audit. Can't improve there.

Having some issues at work that I need to deal with though. I'll get it handled. In the meantime, Bob, my DM says that I need to get what I can do done and not think about work on my day off.

I feel better. Somewhat encouraged and recharged. That's a good thing. I'm no good to my employee's when I'm stressed and complaining about the workload. My employee's deserve better...well, some of them. Other's need me to be mean!


:: Susan 11/13/2002 07:36:52 PM ** ** [+] ::
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I got a new mailbox today. It's so pretty. (yeah, whatever)

:: Susan 11/13/2002 07:33:13 PM ** ** [+] ::
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Uh Oh, I've been messing with my blog template...lost my visited link color! OH no!

:: Susan 11/13/2002 04:05:34 PM ** ** [+] ::
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I Don't Want to Work

I just wanna bang on the drum all day. Well, maybe not a drum...how about a computer keyboard?

I used to say "YAY! I'm off to the job I love!" as I walked out the door. Now I drag myself to the door. I love customer service and music retail, but these days the fun has been stripped out of it. I rarely see customers anymore since I'm always having to work on tasks. How can a company call itself "customer service oriented" when it sends me so much other stuff to do? Things like price changes, recalls, enormous shipments, more and more paperwork, DM visits, drop ships of stuff no one will buy? Last year I was a first year manager going into the holidays and it basically went off without a hitch. This year...I haven't been caught up since August! I'm drowning in mounds of unecessary paperwork and tasks. I need to start a movement..."bring back customer service! Let me see a customer and maybe talk awhile!"

Enough about that, it's depressing me.

Missed SaLT group last night and that bums me out bigtime. I love SaLT group! We are studying worship and today I was reading in my book that there are hundreds of things to praise God for everyday. I'm gonna think about that today. All the things I can praise God for In no particular order:

my house and home
my SaLT groups
Northbrook Church
Katie and her kids
Music
My family in Ohio
My niece and nephew
My salvation
trees
Jeepers
My computer
my health
smiles on faces
my friends
His Word
CD's
security
safety from the recent tornadoes
DSL
job
tears
variety
rivers
laughter
joy
the sky
my mind
blue jeans
mercy
compassion
life
babies
sense of touch
insurance
prayer
Grace
mountains
valleys
indoor plumbing
cake, moist cake
sense of taste
AOL IM so I can talk to my Ma a lot
First Baptist Church in Marshalltown
pencil and paper
communication
language
freedom
America
teachers

I could go on...but I think I sometimes take for granted these blessings God has given me. He deserves to be praised!!! I did nothing to deserve any of it. Nothing. I breathe...that's it. His Grace is what blows my mind! Why has He chosen to bless me with my life? Who am I to ever complain about anything? Everything I have comes from Him! EVERYTHING! How did I get it? I just stand here and He blesses me. All I've done is received blessings! I've accepted His gifts.

When someone presents you with a gift, you have 2 options. You can accept it graciously or refuse to take it. When God presents you with a gift, you can accept it or reject it. God gave us all a gift in Jesus Christ. Accept Him or reject Him. It's your choice.

:: Susan 11/11/2002 11:15:58 AM ** ** [+] ::
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Storms

This is attempt #2 to blog. I was blogging last night when I lost my connection! It was due to the horrendous storms that blew through TN last night. It was baaaaaaaaaaaaad! At that moment we were heading into the tornado shelter in the middle of the house, ok, it's the broom closet. Safest place in the house during a storm though. Sirens were a blaring, lightning flashing and wind howling. It was pretty scary. I was secretly hoping that the power would be cut to the mall so I could keep the store closed and work work work to get caught up. I guess it's not so "secretly" now!

Last night the storms killed 1 person in a neighboring county that got hit the worst. Trailer park = deathtrap in storms. Trees down everywhere and there's a lot of cleaning up to do. It could have been a lot worse.

Tonight more storms went through and I was bummed because it caused me to miss my SaLT group. I love SaLT. I really hate that we had to cancel because of the weather.

Instead I used my time as a newly appointed adminstrator. Big title I know. I earned it too! Actually, I got volunteered to it when I made a suggestion to update the church website. I will update it and administrate the message boards. I had fun playing around in there tonight...adding categories and announcements. It's fun for me!

I'm not a computer expert by any means, but I sure do love to learn how to do stuff on it. The computer is like a release for me. Music is a release because a lot of times I listen and worship or pray. It's an awesome mood setter. But at home it is usually crazy and noisy which makes it difficult for me to listen to music like I used to in a former life. My escape is the Internet. I don't know why I am addicted but I am. I am trying not to make it an idol!

I built my website for fun. My blog is fun. I read blogs and visit other websites for fun. I enjoyed Ebay before I ran out of stuff to sell. I hope to enjoy it again sometime! LOL Now I get to use my gifts and talents to help people connect with Northbrook, and it's fun! I enjoy reading and bible study, but I usually do that at night before bedtime. During the day, I just want to play! "When I was Five...

Feeling so alive
Running proud and free
I'll bet you can't catch me, oh no
Running through the rain
Splashing in the mud
I can act insane
Living life' s my favorite game"

Daily Planet

That's all for now...time to IM Ma!

-Sue

:: Susan 11/10/2002 08:33:15 PM ** ** [+] ::
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